众里寻他千百度，蓦然回首，那人却在灯火阑珊处。

今天，老师上了这个名句。

老师有说：“如果真的觉得那个人值得等待，就等下去吧。”然后我就告诉棋、乔雁还有tsang：“如果觉得那个人值得等，就去买一盏灯站在下面吧。最后你一定等成“电灯泡”的！”

然后大家就大笑。

等待？不等待？我不会去做这样的选择，为什么要刻意去选？等和不等，到最后自自然然就会有答案了，当初做的选择有什么用？

今天回到家，一上部落格，觉得很后悔。其实我不想说“了解但我做不到。”，可是已经来不及改了，我想写：

“我会试着。”

 后悔来得及吗？那人已经不想我回他了，所以我没回了。只是在另一个post写下了。

等不等到那天，决定权从来不在我这里，套一句billie常说的话：“随缘。”就真的顺其自然，也顺“琦”自然吧。未来的事未来再算，我知道自己有更重要的事。

而且我突然发现，我其实喜欢海多过天空。

最近突然很喜欢Beyonce Knowles的listen，是喜欢歌词，也喜欢她呐喊的方式。如果有机会让我自己那样喊出来，我一定会。其实你们可能会说，怎么不能那样喊？因为我唱歌不好听，尤其是英文的。

觉得这首歌包含了太多，心情不好的时候，超好发挥的。“听”，这个动作，有时候大家都会忘了做，这首歌提醒了大家。

blog的歌就是listen，有时间就去注意下歌词吧。

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened
There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or turned
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own