In a younger age, I mean when I was an adolescent, I used to speak out my thoughts, feelings and problems to people around me. I feel relief when people understand me or whenever they agree with me.
By and by, I rather joke around than explore my pain to others. I can be crying at home and forget about what made me cry at campus, just try to make fun with my friends and one day will be passed. I know there are still problems which I cannot solve them at this moment, so I am trying to ignore it.
How I wish there is no siblings war in my family, and how I wish there is no one that I don't want to see for the rest of my life. I started to question a lot of "if"s, I started to dream what I can't have, but it is all useless.
年少无知的我，活得真得很轻松自在，我或许没有别人那么自由，我或许有着很多责任很忙，或许也太正直没有试过犯下大错，可是那的时候的我，真的说是多洒脱就有多洒脱。我勇敢地说出我的话，我能大方地要求别人的回答，我也可以做我自己放肆大笑。可是现在的我，我也不懂自己缺少了什么，整个人很空。
我希望，我能好好地和男朋友的家人相处。我可以在他们也说出我的想法。我希望，我的英文不是那么烂，我不需要为了顾及别人的嘲笑、别人的眼光，大方地，说我想说的话，做我想做的事。我希望，我不是那么胖，又或者，自己不是那么介意体重机上的数字，走出去穿得怎样不需要介怀。
I think I know what is missing, my confidence have gone, since I graduated from my high school.
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